Archive for May, 2009

To Love Him More

“Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.  This is the first and great commandment.”

It doesn’t seem like a hard thing—loving God.  Most of us were raised with it.  We know who He is.  We know what He’s done for us.  And in our hearts, we love Him.

Love.  I use the word idly—I love a movie, or a book, or a song.  But do I really understand what it means?  What Christ has done for me, and how I should respond?  My love for Christ is nothing like Christ’s love for me.  He is selfless; I am constantly pressing myself to the forefront.  He is forgiving; I am stubborn.  He is perfect; I am a living image of imperfection.

It’s in my imperfections that I begin to lose myself.  It’s so easy to try to fix them myself—to approach it practically, and see what happens.  If I work hard enough, maybe I can cultivate that beautiful relationship with Christ that my whole being craves…

But it never happens that way.

The irony is maddening.  Love isn’t the goal; it’s the means.  I can’t help but wonder what would happen if I simply loved God more. Would there even be a need for anything else?  Or would He shine through me with such brilliance that all else becomes trivial?

Suddenly, the other things seem less significant; the work, no longer necessary.  I want to strip away the complexities in pursuit of a higher goal: to love Him more. Because only when we have learned from the Author of love can that love overflow to others.

Procrastination

I’ll write this post tomorrow.  About the same time I finish all my British literature papers.

Crossway Review: What Does The Bible Say About That?

This month’s review for Crossway is a bit different than previous ones.  What Does The Bible Say about That?, by Carolyn Larson, is a ‘handbook’ designed for kids ages 8-12.  It deals with more than 300 topics familiar (or not so familiar) to young readers, addressing them with scripture and commentary.

How did I like it?  To be honest, not very well.  The content is biblically sound; as far as I could tell, there was nothing wrong with the book.  Perhaps it was some of the topics that just didn’t sit well with me:

  • Boys (with a “for girls only” note)
  • Dating
  • Drinking
  • Drug Abuse
  • Sex

In all fairness, none of the above topics are addressed inappropriately.  But the very fact that they’re included makes me wonder if I would really be comfortable handing a copy of this book to my eight-year-old brother for reading.  The answer?  Probably not.

I don’t mean to deny the facts.  But still, the knowledge that something exists doesn’t make it appropriate for all ages.  For myself, I would a thousand times rather discuss these things with my future children instead of giving them a handbook in the name of a fix-all preventative or cure.

In reading What Does The Bible Say About That?, your child won’t be exposed to faulty doctrines or false teachings—on the contrary, the book is quite sound in that respect.  But they may finish reading with a broadened knowledge of things perhaps best left alone for the 8- to 12-year-old mind.

Six Flags Over Texas!

Being the younger sibling of a graduate means a lot of things.  It means you have the privilege of taking their senior pictures free of charge.  It means you endure their constant worrying over invitations and the like.  It means you get to shop for cute dresses without buying anything.

But it also means you get to go to Six Flags with a bunch of graduates and have a blast.

The guys on the way up.

First ride of the day: Goliath!

Second ride of the day—hey, why the weird looks?

“Big girls” can ride the carousel too.

A few of us, seized with a fit of madness, chose to ride The Scream.

And…they screamed.  Loudly.

Peter, Paul, and Ben decided to indulge in a packet of mustard.  Don’t ask me why.

This picture has a story to accompany it.  (See video below)

All of us at the end of the day.

We took over Chic-fil-a, where Paul demonstrated his mayonnaise-writing skills.

The video below contains a frightening amount of weirdness.  View at your own risk, and beware.

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I Was Wrong

I am an incredibly stubborn person.  Doesn’t matter how important the matter actually is; I pick my side and stay there.  After all, who wants to change their opinion and admit that they’re wrong?

Such is the case with a certain activity in my life.  A few years ago, speech and debate was the bane of my existence.  It meant either a) lots of babysitting during club meetings and tournaments, or b) attending said club meetings and tournaments and suffering acutely all the way through.  Participating was not an option, so I spent my time watching kids on the playground and reading books.  It was misery.

Last year, with a good deal of shoving, I suddenly found myself immersed in everything I’d assured myself I hated.  I couldn’t speak in public.  I couldn’t debate.  And I most certainly wouldn’t do this of my own choosing.  And for while, most of it was true.  But somewhere along the line, things began to change.


It wasn’t the speech and debate that changed my mind.  There was no sudden enlightenment, no realization that I loved speaking to a panel of judges.  Instead, there was the gradual understanding that I liked these people—I loved these people.

Attending a four-day tournament with a group of people is bound to bring you closer.  Between nerves, a grueling schedule, and results that are both disappointing and exciting, you just don’t leave the same way you came.  It’s hard.  But it becomes something incredible.

For me, tournament season is over.  Tomorrow night, my club will have its final meeting until next year.  And for the first time, that makes me sad.  It’s not that all of it was enjoyable—it wasn’t.  But I would do it all again in a heartbeat.  I’ve learned that it isn’t such a big deal to open your mouth and speak, and the friends along the way are worth everything else.

I was wrong…but I never could have imagined a more pleasant surprise.

For A Special Twin

One year, three months, and three days ago, I left a comment at a blog.

This was not a terribly rare occurrence. It was a comment of introduction—one of those brief three-liners in which I said hello, made a few notes about the post, and wished the recipient luck in becoming ambidextrous. (Nowadays, even those brief three-liners are rare.) In any case, it was an average, ordinary comment on an average, ordinary blog.
The day before that, I received a reply. (No, that was not an error. I left my comment on February 2nd, and received a reply on February 1st.) It was undoubtedly the most lengthy comment I had seen to date, and was ended with the statement that the author would like to become a “regular stoppingbyer here.” Signed—Altariel.

So it began.

In the days, months, and more than a year that followed, I embarked on a wonderful and fascinating friendship that stretched halfway around the world. I learned about New Zealand. I argued passionately about the American Civil War with someone who shouldn’t have known enough to put up protest. I received a gift package with chocolate, pink kiwi socks, and…chocolate. I worked up the courage to suggest a Skype call. I convinced the other party that such a call would be fun. I spoke with my friend for the first time, and drooled over her wonderful accent. I sat in the closet at one in the morning so I could talk without waking the family. I met her younger siblings. I began to look upon her as my twin—and didn’t take the term lightly.

Meanwhile, she put up with a lot from me, and gave a lot in return. She left me thousand-word comments. She critiqued my poor attempts at writing. She sent postcards and letters and pictures. She agreed to Skype against her better judgment, and immediately was hooked. She laughed at my American accent while I admired her New Zealand one. She threw me a birthday extravaganza on her blog when I turned sixteen. She pushed me out of my comfort zone during NaNoWriMo. She raced me to the finish line, and fell asleep on her keyboard at the end. She laughed with me—and at me. She prayed for America with me and others during a disappointing election. She became so much more than a twin, but a dearly loved friend.

The internet is criticized often, and most people don’t but a high value on friendships conducted solely online. Over the past year, however, I have learned just how effective such communication can really be. Of course it lacks the final dimension gained in “real life,” but too many of us probably underestimate the full potential of the technology we have at our fingertips. How else can a friendship so easily grow to surpass the barrier of such an incredible distance? It is truly amazing, and not something to be either devalued or overvalued.

But where is all this headed? Today, my friends, is Altariel’s seventeenth birthday.

To my dear twin Gabrielle, fondly known as DT: I love you, and I’m sorry this birthday post isn’t nearly as exciting as mine was last year. I love your desire to know what you believe, and base your beliefs on the truth. I love your family, and I want to meet all of you so badly. On a less sentimental note, I love your accent, too.

Your wit and wisdom continually astound me, as does your unending ability to be mean in the sweetest way possible. As a writer, you are sheer amazingness. As a critic, even better. As my Dear Twin…well, you’re pretty cool, no doubt about it.  Cool enough to warrant a post that breaks every rule of good blogging and will probably turn off most readers since it’s a solid block of text.

Happy birthday, DT!

YouTube And Other Woes

Beth here, reporting live from the Regional tournament.  Actually this is just a filler to notify all of you that a video blog is forthcoming (tired of those yet?), as soon as YouTube cooperates long enough to complete the upload.  We shall see.

In other news, I have survived nearly half of this tournament, and am feeling surprisingly happy.  The only exception would be tomorrow’s schedule, which will necessitate getting up at 6:30.  Woeful indeed.

The final woe of the evening is the fact that I have no pictures to share.  I’ll try to get some up at a later date.  Till then, farewell!

ETA: YouTube came around, and I can now present the traditional “on the way to the tournament” video.

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